"It's my life, and it's now or never."

My mantra. I always refuse to give up or give in, so I live in shifting worlds of anger, frustration, determination, and hopefully happiness. Why do people have to suck, though? Somtimes I wonder if I'm paying for the ills that I've caused towards others, but, god, those are truly far and in between. And I felt HORRIBLE. One would think that the stress and sadness that I experienced in my less than glory moments would've been enough penance, but no, of course not because then that would make my life un-complicated. I don't think that my life is meant to be un-complicated. Irony? You want to hear it? I've been trying to surround myself with people that I truly percieved (under a mf'in microscope, too) to be decent and respectable, but they still let me down. I only ask for one thing in all my relationships: honesty. Is honesty on a list of hard things to do somewhere? I always believed that it was just easier to be up front and direct with people; apparently, it is not a sentiment that is widely shared. So I'm back to my mantra.....

"This aint a song for the broken-hearted...I aint going to just be a face in the crowd. You're going to hear my voice when I shout it out loud. It's my life and it's now or never..."